Stream of Consciousness

stream of consciousness. the sun is bright on the snow. the children grew. russ grows, tucker grows. grows and grows. i want a garden someday, no i want it now but can't have it now but that's ok.  oh, this is the last one, ok. what next.... the sea. no, i don't remember i don't know what you're talking about. did he give me candy today? no. that's tucker is he going to let me keep typing? the sea it sparkles i want to explore the bay. this summer. move those books. milk, in the fridge. i get your milk, bubba. please, not right now, thank you. this summer... parents are coming to visit.  i can't wait, i love seeing them and we will explore alaska. cold. blanket? in the corner. let's use this one. oh, there's a head in my spot, i'll sit over here.  secure. i feel secure, do they? i hope so, i'm trying and i have to keep trying. keep trying. keep trying. diligence. that's the word. that's the word for life. i think so. i love them. they are funny.  they are everything.  everything is good. i love him. i love Him. i am thankful. that's pretty the bright white. i love seeing the trees on the mountain right outside.  my heart swells my vision expands. why is he crying? does he want to watch a movie?  oh, is russ bugging him? thank you for saying sorry my boy. pig, haha. eagle. i am blessed. i will see what is beyond this bay. this summer. the open sea. its a little scary, but so open. so open. so fresh. fresh air, the air is fresh here.  remember to breath it in. to notice.  i want to hike all day every day to the tops of mountains closer to God to look down and think.  about life about more than life. to feel peace. nothing like it to me. stream of consciousness....